UPDATE March 6: Just had a job interview! That in and of itself is a joyous thing; the energy is moving in the right direction. Even if they find a person with more experience and/or less hourly salary requirements, I'm just so happy to have had a shot at something!!! I would LOVE that job -- working with parents who are out of work -- doing my best to help them get their lives and their children's lives in a better place. Realistically, not easy, but rewarding!
Lately, I have felt like I have needed to push hard and force life to give me what I need. The result of that approach (for me) is anxiety. Today, the world feels different. Though nothing has changed -- I have not landed that elusive "dream job" -- I feel very different. I simply have that peaceful feeling one gets when the struggle is over. I feel that a change is coming that will be a happy one for me. I will not push, force, or squeeze this creation into existence.
I am kicking back today, hanging out with a furry guest in my home named Boca. I am studying science in the comfort of my bedroom and welcoming the snow. I have an illogical (yet I believe authentic) sense that something remarkable is going to happen soon. I'm not psychic in the way that I'd like to be, but I can be intuitive. Something great is in the works.
"But one creature said at last, 'I am tired of clinging. Though I cannot see it with my eyes, I trust that the current knows where it is going. I shall let go, and let it take me where it will. Clinging, I shall die of boredom.'" -- Richard Bach