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What a couple of hours can do

1/27/2018

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So today, Saturday, I haven't coughed much. And it is amazing how those few hours -- from about 4:00 to 11:00 (now) make me feel like my life might not be entirely over or entirely a waste. I didn't work today. I didn't get stressed (as much). I did do a TON of paperwork for school -- quiet work. . I could have a job pushing papers, being quiet, and I might be okay.

I also know that my new doctor is looking into the possibility that yet another auto-immune disease is the cause of my cough.  So, I started researching as well. It just might be something called Sjogren's Sydrome. That gives me a tiny bit of hope, because it's not the worst disease ever, and at least it would be a diagnosis.

If I go back to work on Monday, and the cough is just as bad as last week, I'm going to ask for a leave of absence. A rest after all these days of coughing might just keep me sane.

So, really though, now that I feel better, I'm here to say: I love Vera Farmiga.

Does that seem like an odd digression? No, no it's not. This is my place. I can write whatever I want. Put up pictures I want. Digress all over the place. Break all the grammar rules. Use the word "really." It's really amazing. Writing straight from my disordered mind is a life-affirming experience. I'm a little bit happy right now.
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I have nothing to write about.

1/25/2018

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And yet, here I am. I love this place. It's all mine.

Running away, let's do it.

I know someone who doesn't even understand what an English teacher's dream Into the Woods is.

Sometimes people leave you
Halfway through the wood.

I need some boar jerky.

I want out so bad that it might just literally (and I know how to use the word literally properly) kill me. Or maybe I want it to.

I could just move to Michigan or Iowa or even better, Western PA.

Man oh man oh man. I scroll down and see that I used to feel good about stuff.
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Cure me or give me the big shot...

1/24/2018

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I woke up one day in summer with a cough. I have been coughing now for 210 days. Every day. I have seen quite a few doctors. I have had cat scans, pet scans, MRIs, blood tests, and breathing tests. Tomorrow, I see a new pulmonologist for a second opinion, and I'm going to tell the guy to either cure me or give me the big shot. Either would be preferable to this purgatory of coughing.  That's so selfish of me, isn't it? I have people who love me, care about me, and depend upon me. That's why -- in spite of everything -- I don't mean it. But it will feel good to say it.

Under the wide and starry sky,
Dig the grave and let me lie.
Glad did I live and gladly die,
And I laid me down with a will.
This be the verse you grave for me:
“Here he lies where he longed to be;
Home is the sailor, home from the sea,
And the hunter home from the hill.”

-- Robert Louis Stevenson

He had consumption (aka TB). Can you blame him for welcoming the grave? Below is Monet's wife on her deathbed with consumption (aka TB and aka the artists' disease).  I don't have that; the symptoms don't match, but I have great sympathy for them.

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