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Lists #1 The Dark Corner of Publishing

12/28/2013

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Publicity and Promotion: I am supposed to publicize my novel -- write a blog, do virtual book tour, network, yada yada yada. I would like to have a successful book that reaches millions of readers and pays for my children's private school and college education (or at least pays off my credit card debt), however if I continue on this path of self-promotion I might as well sell my soul because that is how awful it feels. So I'm not going to do that anymore. I fully accept the consquences. I'll probably continue with the blog, though. Like Naoko in A Tale for the Time Being, I find it fun to imagine the reader on the other side.  Unrelated to personal ambition, it gives me enormous pleasure to imagine a Ruth Ozeki smiling at my hopes and insecurities as she reads along. After all, I really am a sixteen year old schoolgirl at heart.  Update: Check this out!  As I was searching for an image to go with this blog, I found this guy, Sean Beaudoin.  He even uses the hell analogy, but it looks like he's a bit better about doing what he has to do in spite of hating it. I feel a little less alone right now...

Critics: I really am fearful of criticism. I went through extraordinarily, high-pressure criticism when I was in acting school (I know, that was another life -- I'll talk about that later -- or maybe never).  I handled the terrifying presence of a six foot five inch director doing his best to humiliate me -- but that was acting.  My writing is quite another story.  My writing really is like... my soul in code. I made choices with Dark Corner that I knew very well were not the ones I should make -- I think I said this before -- but I just couldn't choose a word that would be in the vocabulary of a typical seventh-grader when I had at my disposal a word that fit perfectly.  I did not write for my intended audience as much as I wrote for the story itself. I simply had to serve the story, and if that means a kid has to highlight a word on his tablet and look it up, then so be it! I made decisions that leave me open to criticism, nevertheless I want to hear good things. That goes back to my perpetual immaturity; I want to live in a world of lollipops and rainbows.

The Adventures of Robin Wingfield (Volume 2): If I keep thinking about marketing, self-publishing, and critics, then when will I write the next novel?  I've been spending precious hours of my life trying to figure out how to get people to read Dark Corner. I could have written several chapters by now. Maybe I won't even publish it, but the story is there (at least the outline) and I think Robin deserves to move on from Dark Corner. Perhaps I'll never have even a hundred readers, but my son and daughter will have the whole story. Priorities?

Why do I feel compelled to publish this series?
I think the answer is the same reason that I wanted to be an actor at some point.  I do want attention.  I crave an audience.  I love to express my thoughts and opinions.  And yet -- and here is the contradiction -- I am about as introverted as a person can be.  I find other people absolutely terrifying, yet want their admiration and attention. I often have a low opinion of myself, yet I think I am smarter than many of the extroverts I know who are mired in social muck. Daniel Radcliffe was quoted as saying that fame is "ghastly" (so British, so cute) and I think he's probably right, but part of me would like to give it a try.

Why do I feel compelled to write this series?
Herein lies a mystery of my life.  I have no idea why I need to write about Robin.  I'm sure years of psychoanalysis could tease it out.

Stay tuned for List #2 Whining and LIst #3 Appreciating


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